Really, I think we just get used to it. Accept it. Quit regretting the changes we couldn't control any way. This isn't truly better. It's just stressing less over it. Same problems.
The better part is growing closer to Steven. We have so little in common and so much in common. Personality types may be tooooo close. Experiences and opinions are worlds - galaxies - apart. We connect. We don't see each other's views very clearly. I sure love him.
My other family continues to drift further. My fears about divorce confirmed and played out daily. The breakdown of a family system. Sure. Some of it is just children being adults and moving on with their own lives. This had been going on in a natural way before the divorce. Now. Different. Acquaintances instead of family. I hope the love someday pulls us back together. I have my doubts, though. Sides are taken. Half love is given. Loyalties divided. It's never the same. Thanks Steve Schreiner for running away instead of caring for your family. Take what you can from it and be satisfied. It could have been so much more. I am coming to acceptance. Not satisfaction.
It's something though. A little more peace in my soul. So much was taken from me to be divided for you. I have not forgiven or forgotten but there is some acceptance. Such a long hard road of denial that did me no good. Of course. It was hard to accept but it is reality. I'm inching along still have good support from some of my family.
Keep moving forward. Keep asking God for help and forgiveness. Keep better care of myself and rely on others less. Independence. Self sufficiency. Strength. Faith. Hope. Love. Safe good love. To those of you who judge and demand, good luck. To those of you who care. Welcome and I love you too.
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